Chapter 2:Ignorance shattered
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day after my mother had told us what had happened to our grandparents, was
filled with somber conversations, and talks of what they had done and who they
were. We had one of my mother’s siblings and their family stay with us. They
had three children the youngest a boy around 14 and two girls who were two or
four years older my memory is a tad hazy on them. I had my own bedroom so I stayed
in there mostly during the next couple of days because I could not understand
everything that was going on. I had always pestered my older brother about
wanting to play games with him and his friends but he always ignored me. I should
mention that we also had my great aunt sue staying with us as well as some of
my mother’s cousins who were quite young. They were around my brothers age and
all male between the ages of 10-13. I was six years old at this time. On around
the third day I pestered my brother to let me play a video game with him and my
2nd cousins but he said no. I asked if I could just watch and he
said no. on the fourth day my cousin who was 14 and a boy asked me if I wanted
to play a game. I was so utterly gleeful because he was older than my brother
and he thought I was cool. Little did I know that my merriment would soon turn
to ash. I asked him where we were going to play and what were we going to play.
He told me we were going to play a question game and that we could play it in
my room. I being the naïve 6-year-old I was didn’t protest and was intrigued. He
took me to my room and locked the door, he then sat on my bed, I had a bunk bed
with Scooby doo sheets and pillow cases. I stood in front of him. I asked him
what the rules were for this game he said that he would ask a question and if I
got it right he would take off a piece of clothing, but if I got it wrong I would
have to take off a piece of clothing. We played the game for about 10 minutes. First
I had to remove my whinnie the pooh t-shirt, then he took off his shirt. I only
had underwear and pants on so when I lost those he still had clothes. He told
me I would have to play with his special area if I wanted to win the game and
get to leave otherwise he was going to tell my parents I had done something
wrong. I have blocked out most of that day. I remember waking up the next day
and not knowing if what had happened the day prior had actually taken place. I told
my grief ridden mother about what had happened, I remember her asking my cousin
if he did anything and he said no. I remember my mother believing his lie over
my truth. And I can remember my heart shredding to pieces’ as I felt like the
most alone person in the world. On the 5th or 6th day a
little glimmer of light shined my dad’s parents were there, and best my
fantastic loving grandmother was there, still shaken up from the day’s prior
events I did not hug my grandmother and was at first worried she would be mad
at me. Than my grandfather told me that it is perfectly polite to greet someone
with an extended hand too. He made me relaxed so for the rest of the time
before the funeral I stayed in my room with the door locked, plagued with
nightmares when I slept or even closed my eyes. Over time I had learned to
block out the event until an incident much farther in the future made it return
in splendid horror. But back to the funeral, thousand upon thousands of people
came to the funeral of my mother’s parents. They had been missionaries who had
traveled to over 150 countries, they were great philanthropists. My grandfather
was an orthopedic surgeon as well as an author. My grandmother was always a missionary
and loved her work. Sadly, they passed away on the 14th of May in
the year 2002 just two days before my eldest sister’s birthday. During the
funeral I sat by my grandmother who I let hold my hand because I always felt
safe with her whenever I would see her or even hear her voice. We listened as
family and who I assume were friends came up on stage to glorify my mother’s
dead parents. When the funeral was over I went home and sat on one of our
couches just talking to my grandmother as she told me stories of her youth. These
were my favorite times with her growing up because I always felt almost ethereal
like my problems floated away and I was just in her stories without a care. My grandmother
and grandfather left two days after the funeral and we said goodbye to them. It
was and still is always incredibly hard for me to have to say goodbye to my
grandmother, even if I know I’m going to see her again. She will always be the
most important person in my life forever and always. For the next year life
seemed to go by as normal, I had moved to a new school and had made friends and
life seemed to be going well. But as you will learn my life only went well for
very short periods of time.
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